FREAK ya!

2007-08-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

honestly, im sick and tired of this blog..
haha!
maybe after ive changed the blogskin again, then i'll start updating this blog again..
heehee..
so instead of reading this blog, why dont you read my other blog? :)
check out my links!

2007-07-20T00:17:00.000-07:00

i wanna be malay today..
dun wanna talk english too much lah..
i mean, as a malay, i have to be proud of my own religion right?

hari ini, saya berasa amat gembira sekali..
entah mengapa, setiap yang berlaku itu bagaikan sesuatu yang manarik walaupun ianya langsung tidak menarik..
hmm..
cikgu hanita sentiasa menggalakkan anak muridnya supaya menggunakan bahasa melayu baku jadi saya akan mematuhi perintahnya itu..
seperti yang kalian tahu tentang saya, saya merupakan seorang murid perempuan yang sangat berdedikasi dan rajin..
saya akan menyiapkan apa segala tugas yang telah diberikan..
saya juga seorang yang baik hati yang boleh diharap..
hehe..
oleh sebab itu, ramai orang yang menyayangi saya..
maaf, itulah yang ingin say ucapkan kepada anda semua kerana terlalu memuji diri saya ini..
haha!

im so sorry guys..
it sounds totally stupid sia to praise myself like that..
well, to be honest, i just had nothing bettre to say.
that's why i came up with that crap.
furthermore, tomorrow's racial harmony day..
according to hanita lah..
i'm not so sure bout that..
n i miss him damn a lot sia..
how can he be so super heartless?
it's been 7 days since the day we had the misunderstanding and till now, there's still no bloody reply from him..
darn.
he's a bastard.
no he's not.
yes he is.
i say no he's not lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
frankly speaking, i don't know myself..
i'm all confused right now.. :s
and it's all because of you..

2007-07-17T11:36:00.000-07:00

i'm all alone now at my school lib..
haha but it's okay..
at least it gives me some time to reflect about my life again..
felt so alone today..
i dunno if i should msg him agn or not..
i mean, what's the point of msging him if he won't reply just because of a freaking misunderstanding we had again..
to be honest, i've lost count how many times we're like this..
not talking and practically ignoring each other..
i'm getting sick of this..
when we first got to know each other, it was so cool..
we would msg each other and talk about loads of stuffs..
some ppl might find our msges lame..
or maybe stupid..
yeah we talk about lame lame stuffs all the time..
but that is what makes me happy to be happy..
the moment my handphone vibrates..
i'll start to smile..
and laugh even if that day is really a bad day for me..
at first, we would msg each other every single day..
every single hour..
every single minute..
every single seconds..
but i dunno what happen now..
he's been ignoring all my msges since last saturday..
what makes my heart ache more is the fact that he didn't even bother to reply..
boo.. :x

2007-07-16T01:54:00.000-07:00

hey i'm back..
and so much has happened..
too many things happened that i dun even think that it can fit this space..
i'm tired of my life sia..
sometimes i just wish that i never exist in this world..
i mean, for what??!!!
i still can't figure out the purpose of existing in this world..
it's totally sickening..
today's english lesson had made me reflect on my life..
dawn wong said that sometimes ppl laugh because of fear..
and it set me thinking..
maybe it could be true..
yeah i laugh a lot as you all know..
to me, i laugh because i fing something funny and hilarious..
but i thought about it agn..
maybe i'm just scared to admit that i am indeed scared of what has happened..
all this while, i just deny everything..
i'm really living in denial..
i just seriously hate it when ppl know about my misery.
it sucked.
i'd rather others see me as a happy-go-lucky kid..
always smiling here and there..
k la forget it.
some ppl just won't understand me.
i'm now at siti's house..
adilah n ashiqa are busy doing dunno-what-la to their hair..
they look so super stupid.
n retarded.
and they're laughing like some mad women.
haiz..
i pity siti..
poor she..
hancur kene bully with those two bitches.
bimbo.
lawllll.... :D

2007-06-24T19:42:00.000-07:00

hi everyone!!

so sorry that i didnt update my blog for a so very very very veryyyyyyyyyyy llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggg time..

haha..

my comp at home is rosak so i cant use them..

i miss blogging.

n going online.

haha but nevermind..

now that im back..

hehe..

so some of you might be wondering why you cant get through my handphone..

i guess my msg inbox must be totally flooded with msges now..

haiz..

dun think i can read them coz i no longer ahve my sim card..

thrown away by my dad the moment he opened n saw my bill..

got another thrashing..

he scolded me for so long that i got really scared of him now.

i dun even dare say anything related to handphones in front of him now..

if i do that, he'll stare at me like sth..

scary sia..

so i cant sms anymore.

fine.

i'll use my sis handphone then.

there's only five contacts anyway..

haha..

big deal.

lol im now at jrl..

wasting my time..

delaying and delaying for the time for me to go home..

there's practically nth to do at home..

i'll only eat, sleep, watch tv, use comp and eat, sleep, watch tv, use comp and bla bla bla..

oh and i'll also do some 'suntanning' in my room..

haha!

dun ask me what im saying..

wanna know?

ask ika..

heehee..

call me insane.

i dun freaking care.

so yeah..

my credit running low..

gtg now..

bye! (:

2007-05-24T08:31:00.000-07:00

see dear?
ive deleted all the previous posts for your sake..
dun get jealous anymore la..
i wont post anything crappy agn..
i promise.. :)

2007-05-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

so sorry kay??

dun get angry at me anymore..

jgn majok lagi ah..

i know im in the wrong..

i know im just so unreasonable..

so sorry..

dun be angry anymore.. :'(